Friday, December 3

Happy First Birthday my beautiful girl

I can't belive we got her here!
Its been such an amazing, joyous, heart breaking, scarey year. I just don't know how many adjectives I can use! Unbelieveable.
L was really emotional all day, we both were really. It was a busy day, we had to vote and pick up baloons and cake and a few bits a pieces. I wasn't ready by the time people started arriving, but that's become normal now!
We had a great afternoon. Heaps of people here, its really nice to know we are so well supported. I can't remember what I said in my speech, but L made a lovely speech and made everyone cry!
The last people left after midnight, but that's OK they are close family friends. We were just sitting out on the deck having a few wines. I really didn't feel the wine, I think cause I'd been sipping all day rather than drinking - I was too busy trying to get to everyone.
Holly was quite unsettled throughout the day. I really think that it was all the noise and everyone getting up in her face. She just got grumpy and she did a big spew all over the gorgeous skirt that my bestie S made. I felt bad cause she didn't even see Holly in it! We gave her some panadol to try to settle her a bit, she had a sleep and woke up at about midnight - but she decided that she would be wide awake and in a really good mood! She didn't go to sleep until after 3. So even though everyone had left, Holly and I were just sitting up in the lounge.
L and I did very little on Sunday. Our parents called in to help clean up, but I'd already done it.

A catch up...

Since her seizure its been quite eventfull around here.
That was on a Tuesday night.... that week was pretty busy with appointments, then L had soccer on Friday night and I was bathing Holly when she fell out of her bath chair. She arches a lot and she just arched and fell into the water. I took her over to the hospital just to check that she hadn't aspirated any water. They did some x rays and found she was all clear so we got to go home after about 5 hours. Then she was great over that weekend. We were just running around finishing off some house renovations. Until Monday morning. She started breathing really funny - almost like an asthma attack and she was running a high temperature. I put her in the car and took her back to the hospital - third time in a week! So the triage nurse didn't make us wait, we went straight in. She was really distressed and crying and not nice at all. So they did more x-rays of her chest to see if there was an infection - that came back clear, they did x-rays of her abdomen in case there was an obstruction - that came back clear, they did three UTI tests - two came back positive and one negative. Mind you, that last one was after she'd been on an IV drip for about 4 hours. She was only OK when she'd had panadol, so they just kept dosing her up on panadol. They couldn't find anything wtong with her though. They kept her in overnight just to make sure she was OK overnight. By morning she had drunk all her breakfast and lunch so they let us go home. It was a mystery illness. I have no idea why she was sick - neither do the doctors!
So that was Monday and Tuesday pretty much taken care of. Then Wednesday and Thursday was full of getting ready for Holly's party. Friday L took off work so he could help get the house ready. We did things like pick up the tables and chairs from my dad's and set up decorations etc. Saturday was her birthday. She made it to one!

Wednesday, November 17

Another seizure :(

Holly had another seizure last night - this was a big one. It went for a few minutes and she turned blue for a bit. I rang the ambulance and they cam just after she'd stopped fitting. It was shit, horrible, aweful seeing her - you just feel so helpless. Even if she is fitting, there isn't anything that anyone can do - even at the hospital. Its just crap.
We got to the hospital pretty quick, she was just lethargic in the ambulance, but by the time we waited for the doctors to come around and check her out, she was totally fine. She was her usual happy self, just wanting dinner!
Very scarey.
I think that after having her so well for such a long time, we've kind of become a little compacent that she is going to be fine. It really put the wind up us both. I think anxiety is a little high because we are approaching her birthdya too - she wasn't even supposed to live this long, so its a bit worrying. I'm sure she'll be fine, its just a bit of a fright thats all.

Saturday, November 13

far out its been ages!

I can't believe its been since September that I posted last. Crazy.
Well, since September, we've just been settling in to our new house really.
Started with our new physio from Specialist Children Services - not overly happy with them, but it just adds to the excitement of CPEC. The physio from CPEC came out last week and did a bit of an initial assessment of Holly. She showed us another way for us to get Holly to roll over so she can do some tummy time and help with her head control. Her head control still isn't very good, but we'll keep working on it. She's been having quite a lot of jolts lately, they happen really often. When we went back to the neuro a couple of weeks ago I spoke to him about them, we are on another type of medication to hopefully reduce them, but it hasn't done anything yet - but we aren't on a full dose yet either. We are working our way up to a full dose, we aren't even half way there yet. We should be on a full dose by January. She had her first full seizure about a month ago. We were staying up at my Dad's while we installed the new kitchen at our house. I had Holly on the bed while I changed her nappy, just as I looked away she did a jolt - which is 'normal' for her, but then she started to make a funny noise and I realised it was like she was just continually jolting and couldn't stop them. My heart was just pounding. I didn't really know what to do. My phone was in the kitchen and I was in the bedroom - I didn't want to leave her, but I know your not supposed to pick people who are having a seizure up or touch them other than to keep them from hurting themselves. My heart was just pounding. Its really hard, even last night, she woke up screaming and L and I think that it was probably a seizure that woke her up. There is absolutely nothing we can do about them, we are giving her her medicine, so there isn't anything else I can do.
Other than her seizures though, she has been just awesome since we moved - she is just so much more settled and relaxed and not crying and happy. We are getting heaps more smiles out of her, she is very responsive to you when you talk to her, she either coos back or smiles. Its been great to see. I personally think its cause I'm a lot more settled. I've got more family and friends around me and I can see them more often and I don't feel as isolated. I'm more comfortable in this house - especially now we've done the kitchen and made the House more like our own. We all have enjoyed the move, L is enjoying being closer to training and he's enjoying the change of scenery. He's been working particularly hard on the house.
We've really been working hard to get the house up and ready for Holly's birthday party - I can't believe she's going to be one. Its unreal. What an amazing year. So many tears and heart ache and joy and love.

Friday, September 3

CPEC is awesome!

We went to CPEC today for our initial interview. What an amazing place that is. It was so inspiring to see all the kids using their different ways of communicating and then we saw them trying to walk in different kinds of frames and things. Such an amazing supportive place. We met some of the physios and the OT's and the speechies, all lovely people. We were going along thinking that we might not get in or that we might not be accepted, but the way the lady was talking was like we'd already been accepted! We are so happy Holly can go there. She will be one of only 4 accepted into their baby program, We feel so lucky.
We left there at midday after a 9:30 appointment.
I had a great afternoon too with a visit from a great friend of mine. We just sat around gossiping and solving the problems of the world! We had a mini party with party pies and chocolate for lunch!
A good day in general.

Thursday, September 2

Far out its been AGES!

I can't believe how long its been since I posted. Nearly a month - how did I survive??!!
Holly got out of hospital OK, my previous blog was not the only run in I had with the nurses at the hospital. I had this absolutely nasty nasty piece of work who tried telling me that Holly's meds couldn't go down the g-tube! As soon as I questioned her about it, she got really nasty towards me. Pulled in the doctors and was being a complete bitch. Anyway, I ended up getting a full apology from the head nurse because of her! I was quite pleased with that. I didn't even mention anything to her - the other nurse who was on duty at the time wrote a letter of complaint about her about how rude the nasty one was to me! Anyway, we never ever have to go back there again - ever!!
So once we were out of hospital we hit full gear packing and getting ready for the move. She came home on the Sunday and we moved that Friday so we were full ball that week. We settled on Friday after spending all morning cleaning up at the Seaford house, we got to the new house and had to clean it. The house stank of stale cigarette smoke and fake yucky air freshener. We stayed here on Friday night, but only just - the smell was awful. The painters arrived at 7:30 on Saturday morning and got to work. We had 5 guys do the whole house and they got it all finished by 5 on Sunday. We stayed up at my Dad's while the painting was going on. Crazy crazy days. We had things cleaned out and painted by Monday so I guess you could say we were completely in by the Monday.
I also became an aunt! William Lucas was born on the 16th of August - same day as his mummy! I don't think I'd be telling out of turn that it kind of hit home a little bit. Having another baby in the family, knowing that they are going to be able to do a lot more than Holly can very quickly, its going to be hard. nothing I can do about it, but its going to be hard. It is very exciting being an aunt!
What else....
I can't remember too much more at this stage. We are in the middle of organising the kitchen renovations, we;ve got a little bit of money left from the settlement of the other house so we want to do the kitchen as soon as possible. So we are picking colours and organising tiles and things.
I went to a funeral yesterday. I was so inspired by the parents, A & P. A was amazing. She had her little boy at 26 weeks and he lived for 20 days. The coffin was so small. A was so strong, I just can't imagine what she is going through, and yet, its something that is constantly in the back of my mind. I don't want to think about the pain.
Holly has been back to a few different doctors in recent weeks too. The opthomologist was a bit of a waste of time. I paid her $130 to tell me that everything is the same and I'll see her again in 6 months. Thanks!
She also went back to the neurologist for her little seizures. We have started on Epilim which is an anti convulsing medication. It doesn't seem to be doing anything at the moment, but she is on a very very mild dose, we have to increase it on the weekend. She also went back for another EEG yesterday. She looked very very cute with the little cap on. She looks cute anyway, but she was extra cute with the cap on!
SO that's about it for the last month - well what I can remember anyway! I'm sure I'll remember more later, but I should have a bit more time to catch up on more blogging now we are getting more settled.

Tuesday, August 10

grumble grumble

I'll write more when I get a chance, but I'm bloody pissed off right now. Bloody bloody doctors - grrrr.
Holly's in hospital - has been there since Sunday afternoon.
They didn't think she had a UTI so they didn't start her on any meds, then they came back today with "oh yes, she does have one", so they've started her today - two days after she was admitted.
They put a g-tube in cause her nose is all stuffy and because she was so de-hydrated, they gave her gastrolytes last night. That resulted in all sorts of screaming pain - she was hungry, tired, sore and it gave her really really bad diarrhea. That finished late last night, so today she was allowed to try a bottle, she just gags at it, can't swallow cause her nose is all blocked. So they put milk down her g-tube, and that was fine. At least she wasn't hungry again. Until late this afternoon, and some wise guy decides that even though they've only tried milk down the tube once, they aren't going to try again, they are just going back to gastrolytes. So the poor little thing is back to where we were 24 hours ago. Bring on the hungry, tired, sore and diarrhea again!

Friday, August 6

He he he

Just had to post this. A friend of mine just had this as her facebook status, I think it suits my mood right about now -
Hello, I'm the happy fairy. I've come to beat the shit out of you with my happy wand!

ha ha ha ha!
Love it

Thursday, August 5

A lot happens in a week.

Its hard to believe its been another week, in some ways it goes so quickly, yet in others it just seems to drag along.
Thursday was hydro and the counsellor, all good. Holly was soooo cute after she'd been for a swim. She zonked so quickly! I took a photo of her in her car seat on the way home, she was waaayyyy too pooped, very very cute and snoring! Thursday night I went up to my cousins for dinner again with a yummy cheesecake again. Friday morning I went and picked out my new glasses and then we went down to Phillip Island for the night. It was good to be with everyone, but it was seriously one of the worst nights sleep I've had since Holly was three weeks old! It was one of those nights where you lay awake, just waiting for daylight so that at least you can get up and do something! Between the dog scampering about and Holly waking up and being in an uncomfortable bed, it really wasn't a great nights sleep. We came home Saturday afternoon and I was grateful to sleep! Sunday my mum and sister came over to help us pack the house up a bit more.
Monday was filled with appointments, the main one being Holly's physio. A friend of mine has an aunt that is really well known in the bobath technique of physio. This lady lives in London and travels the world teaching people the technique. I had told my friend about our debacle of the physio conference and how Holly had gotten sick, so she organised for her aunt to come over to our house while she is in Melbourne and consult with Holly. Such a lovely gesture! Anyway, the lady was here for about 2 hours, just catching up on how Holly is, what she's like etc. It was interesting to see what she thought. She thinks Holly has a bad temper! She said that a lot of Holly's crying is just bad temper, that there actually isn't a great deal wrong with her in terms of her spacticity. She came to this conclusion because Holly was crying while physio was manipulating her. The physio could still work with her while she cried, she didn't stiffen up. This suggested to her that her stiffening was not a part of spasticity, rather, bad temper. Holly wasn't getting what she wanted and so she was crying - like all babies!
Anyway, the physio was suggesting to me that I needed to be firmer with Holly.
That I needed to tell her to stop crying, and that I shouldn't 'give in' and
give her what she wants when she wants it.
I'm still so new to this whole parenting thing!!
I tried to be firm with her while the physio was there, but I just couldn't. It
is really funny cause I'm a teacher, I'm used to being firm with children - in a
nice way - but I just can't with my own child!
So, its raised a few questions, I'm just not sure of so many things.
What age should you start disciplining? I don't mean punishing, but being firm
and telling her what she needs to be doing - its not like she will be able to
understand me. Isn't 8 months a little too young? Its really shaken me up a bit, I keep going over it. I don't want to be mean to her. I do understand about being firm and not letting her walk all over us, but really - how much does she know?? And the other thing that keeps going through my head is so what? So what if she cries to get what she wants, so what if we give her what she wants. She is only going to be on the planet for such a short amount of time, does it really matter that we give her what she wants? I know its hard and stressful for us having someone so demanding, but at the end of the day, she isn't going to be here for long.
I think like that for probably about 75% of the time, and the other 25% is filled with - I can't keep doing this, I can't keep giving her what she wants. She wants to be held ALL the time, she wants to be fed on my lap, she cracks it when she has to go in the pusher. I get that she can't keep demanding these things of me. She needs to learn that she can't be held all the time, she just has to get used to her tumble form, she can't be fed in my lap, she is getting too big and too heavy for that. I said to L the other day, the reality is that if she was 'normal', she'd be in a high chair to eat by now, so she just has to get used to being in the tumble form to eat. She has to get used to being in the pusher, I can't carry her everywhere, and, she's going to be in a wheelchair. She just has to get used to it, like it or not. I say all this, and deep down I know that I know all this, but when she is screaming crying to a point that she vomits, the logic just goes out the window, and we give her what she wants. I either deal with crying baby or vomit. Its just so hard to know what to do, I don't know how much she understands.
Tuesday was a nothing day, I just spent it at home. I rang around a few places and sorted out connection and disconnections. Wednesday was much the same. We went to the maternal health centre and that's about it, very boring - very very boring. Boring to a point of ridiculous, boring to the point of going nutty. I worked out last night that I've only left the house once since Saturday. I don't think that's mentally healthy. I worked out that the only person I've seen other than Luke this week has been the physio and the maternal health nurse, I don't think that's particularly healthy either. It gets to be very very lonely - oh well, it will get better when we are in the new house. It won't be as far to go and visit people. Holly's got her immunisations today - that's going to be an adventure, she had a bad reaction to the last ones, I'm not looking forward to all the crying and carry on. I guess I'll just load her up with panadol before we go and hope for the best.

Wednesday, July 28

Buggered I am!

Yesterday was my sister's birthday, I had to make dinner and her birthday cake. We went shopping at knox and ordered me some new frameless glasses, then went to the new paediatrician - Dr C.
I think I'm a bit happier with Dr C. He seems a lot more confident in dealing with CP kids. He wasn't alarmed by any of the things that Dr L was when we went on Thursday last week. Dr L was saying that her deterioration was really quite concerning and that she has developed quite a degree of spacticity since he last saw her - I don't agree with him, but then I see her every day so might not notice as much. Dr L was concerned about her weight too, saying she was getting too many calories. Dr C wasn't worried about either, and I think it might be because he has a lot more experience with CP. Dr L by his own admission says he doesn't have much experience with it, so I imagine that as he sees a CP kid, it is alarming to him. I understand where Dr L is coming from, I just don't agree with him. So Dr C thinks that her weight, even though she is in the 75th percentile, isnt too much at this stage - no she isnt crawling around, but she isn't overweight either. Her length, that's another story! She is in the 99th percentile for length, bloody tall - but there isn't anything at all I can do about her height! Dr C wasn't concerned about her spasticity either, he didn't mention it, he just asked which physio we'll be seeing when we move, and we don't know that yet. Dr C wants us to go ahead and order Holly's blood tests for the geneticist. They don't *think* its a genetic thing, but they are just going to check it out. Its actually to see if she has the blood clotting gene. The simplest way to describe what happened to Holly is to say that she sort of had a sort of stroke in the womb - that isn't technically correct, technically her carotid artery was severed and blocked by her skull, but you can say that its a stroke cause usually if there any sort of blockage in the carotid artery, its a stroke. But, the long and short of it is that they want to just rule out that she doesn't have the blood clotting gene because it is usually blood clots that cause strokes - follow my logic? I don't know if I've explained it logically! Anyway, Dr C has ordered the blood tests for that. He's also given us the go ahead to have her 4 month immunisations done. He wants us to get them done in the next week or so while she is well, while she doesn't have a UTI and her teeth aren't coming through or anything.
Gotta tell you about this poo she did today. She'd been a little disgruntled all day and pretty clingy. A friend came over with her twins today and I just couldn't out Holly down for three minutes without her crying - very annoying. Anyway, I fed her her 4pm feed and she was doing little bottom burbs, didn't think much of it. Towards the end of the bottle she was squirming and crying and just yucky, so I stopped feeding her and thought I'd go and change her bum. OMG. I had her in a little white hand knitted jumper after she spewed on the jumper she was wearing earlier in the day. Well, the little white jumper that was over the top of a long sleeve top and a singlet - the jumper had poo on it. The poo managed to get through the singlet, through the long sleeve top and onto the knitted top! It was a poonamu! It was all down her legs, on her tracksuit pants - everywhere! I just stripped her off and put her straight in the bath. She settled down pretty quickly after that and had a great afternoon nap! I've just finished washing everything - what a mess!
Off to the counsellor and to hydrotherapy tomorrow. Should be good, hopefully I'll have some photos.

Monday, July 26

What a week!

Thursday L had a game, Friday I went shopping at Chadstone again, this time I didn't get spewed on, but Holly was a bit of a pain all day - she kept crying. I feel terrible cause I was giving her infants friend all day just to keep her quiet while I shopped. Saturday mum came down and baby sat while we packed up the garage, we had friends over for Thai for dinner. Sunday was really busy, we went up to my Dad's, went and saw the new calves, then we went into town and had high tea at the windsor. I was laughing about it with my sister, in the morning I was out at the farm, dodging cow poo, and in the afternoon I was sitting at high tea eating scones, jam and cream!! I bought two - yes two new pairs of boots which I'm very excited about cause I got them from the wide calf boot shop in Richmond and they did up! Most other boots don't fit my leg, but these fit perfectly, I was so excited to get them.
But thats not the best part of the last few days - today was. I was balling my eyes out for nearly 5 minutes I think. Holly laughed - well I think she did. I was getting heaps and heaps of smiles today, just about everything I did with her today resulted in a smile. This afternoon I just had her on my lap and she was smiling away, and all of a sudden, it was like she couldn't get her smile any bigger and she moved her tongue and a little 'cack, cack' sound came out. It was just like a laugh. Tears just streamed down my face, it was amazing. Its the tiniest little moments like that that make your heart just burst. I will remember that moment forever. Such a great day today!

Wednesday, July 21

I jinxed myself!

Ha, just as I thought Holly was going really well last night! She woke up screaming about 3 minutes after I posted and didn't get back to sleep till after midnight. I was just hanging for L to get home so I could fall asleep and have him take over.
Today was good. Went in to the eye man and he said that my eye is really good and he doesn't need to see me for three months! That's sooo good, we've been going every two weeks to a month for the last year or so, so to be stretched out to three months is fantastic.
I came home, gave Holly her lunch then packed up and went to my vision Australia group. Just as I pulled into the drive and R met me at the car, Holly spewed. I had this "here we go again" thing happening. Just as I try to get out of the house, she spews. I didn't have a spare set of clothes or anything so I thought I'd just go in and settle her and dry her off as much as I could and it could be a bit of an excuse to leave early. But, as she dried off and settled down, she ended up falling asleep so I could stay. We talk about everything - today topics included Holly's seizures (more about that in a minute), one of the other ladies there is moving as well so we caught up on her progress, we touched on topics such as refugees, pole dancing, birthday cakes, books.... totally random stuff, but all good stuff! Its fun just chatting away about nothing though sometimes!
I told them about Holly's seizures. She is having little absence seizures. At this stage they aren't lasting long - about 10-20 seconds and they are only about 2-3 a week. We aren't too concerned at this stage, we are going to the paediatrician tomorrow so I'll be sure to talk to him about them tomorrow. I'm not sure if he'll send me back to the neurologist or whether he'll just put her on medication straight away. I'm really reluctant to put her on any drugs, but the girls at group today kind of convinced me otherwise. They were saying that the earlier you start the better cause it will lessen the impact of more severe seizures, and because it can take some time to sort out which drugs are better, it can take some time to get that organised, and because it can take a while to get an appointment with the neurologist - all good points, so I'll get her started if we can. Gosh, I really can't imagine what its like, but these ladies were talking about their kids seizures. One lady was saying that her daughter was in seizure for 35 minutes once, another lady said that they had to resuscitate her son after his seizure and they weren't giving him enough oxygen, she said that it was one of the hardest things to watch cause there is nothing you can do but watch. I just don't want to think about it - I want to live in sweet naivety.

Tuesday, July 20

Seriously, where does the week go?

I just can't believe how quickly time is going at the moment.
So, Sunday I went to the shops and bought myself a recipe folder from kikki k. I don't want to pack up all my Donna Hay magazines and move them all - too heavy and I have too many, so I bought myself a folder to cut out the recipes I want and throw the rest. I met my sister and we saw Toy Story 3 in 3D. Very cute movie - I nearly cried at the end.
Yesterday I spent the morning just looking after Holly and cleaning the house. I went to Ocean Grove for the night last night to catch up with a close girlfriend of mine. We just went to the pub for dinner, but it was great to have no kids with us and just chat away! We were one of the first lot of people to arrive and the last ones to leave! We sat there for a good 2 1/2 hours just chatting and catching up on gossip. Lovely! I stayed there last night and had to get up and rush this morning cause I had to be back for my stylist lady. It was sooooo much fun! I have literally thrown out half my wardrobe. I counted the amount of hangers! I have 38 in the pile, which means I'm throwing out at least 38 items (more considering I'm throwing out stuff from the drawers as well), and in the wardrobe at the moment there are 35 hangers. I can't believe it! She went through what my body shape is and what style and shape of clothes I should buy for my body shape. I threw out so many things that I thought looked good on me, but once she pointed out why I shouldn't wear something, it became really obvious to me that the things I used to think looked good, didn't really look good! I was also given a voucher to go shop so, now that I know what to buy, it should be a little bit easier.
Holly has been in some ripper moods lately. Heaps of smiles and hardly any crying. I had a little episode this evening, she cried for a bit, she spewed and was fine again within about 10 minutes. She went to sleep early, which is good cause L is at another soccer game. He's been getting heaps of games lately. Its good cause of the money but its bad cause he's not here with us! He's got another game on Thursday night.
I'm off to the eye man tomorrow, and then my Vision Australia group. Should be a good day.

Saturday, July 17

I am Woman...

I have recently just discovered just how much I enjoy this song - yes its been since I saw Sex & the City 2, and they were belting it out on stage and I nearly cried - so technically yes, I am jumping on the band wagon, but I've listened to this song heaps since I saw the movie. Its the type of song that you need to be alone and have the music turned up FULL BALL and just belt the words out at the top of your lungs and dance around the room. That is exactly what I feel like doing right now - its a pity its 12:07am and Holly is fast asleep and L isn't back from his soccer match! Maybe I'll put it on my car stereo tomorrow and just drive around the block!

(Helen Reddy and Ray Burton)
I am woman, hear me roar
In numbers too big to ignore
And I know too much to go back an' pretend
'Cause I've heard it all before
And I've been down there on the floor
No one's ever gonna keep me down again

Oh yes, I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to
I can do anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman

You can bend but never break me
'Cause it only serves to make me
More determined to achieve my final goal
And I come back even stronger
Not a novice any longer
'Cause you've deepened the conviction in my soul

Oh, yes, I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to
I can face anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman

I am woman watch me grow
See me standing toe to toe
As I spread my lovin' arms across the land
But I'm still an embryo
With a long, long way to go
Until I make my brother understand

Oh, yes, I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to
I can face anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman

Oh, I am woman
I am invincible
I am strong

I am woman
I am invincible
I am strong
I am woman

Friday, July 16

Thursday and Friday...

Thursday was another good one. L stayed home with me for the morning because he had been to the soccer the night before. We went to go for a walk with Holly to the street to get some milk and bread but we got to literally within 100meters from the shops and she started screaming. It was really annoying, we tried putting the dummy back in to settle her, but she just wouldn't settle, so we ended up turning around and coming home. L fed her while I got myself ready. I went to the shops then headed up to the counsellor. I had to good session with her, we talked about a lot of stuff and how I'm going to cope with things in the future.
I went from their back to my mother in laws for afternoon tea with some of her friends. L had dropped Holly there on his way to work. I stayed for a couple of hours, just chatting to her friends, and then after they all left, I was chatting to my mother in law for a while. It was good to have a good chat to her.
Came home and had some dinner and L and I watched a movie on box office.
Non eventful really -which is probably why I didn't post yesterday - pretty boring really!
Today I got up and went for a walk while L did the morning feed, it was good to get out of the house early and exercise. Holly was asleep by the time I got back, L went to work and I just did housework. I caught up with an old high school friend today, she came over for a visit. I hadn't seen her in about 8 years or so - a long time anyway! It was really lovely chatting away to her, catching up on what each other had been up to. I'm glad we caught up, I'm hoping to keep in contact a little more regularly.
Then mum came over and we had dinner and a glass of wine. L is off at another soccer game tonight. This one is Melbourne Victory vs Bocca Juniors - apparently they are a well known team from Italy or something - I don't know too much about it but L was excited, so I pretended!! I packed another box today! Two in two days - wow at this rate I'll be packed by..... Christmas? maybe? I'm hoping L will be able to make a start on the sheds tomorrow, at least start to sort out what he wants to take to the tip.
Holly really has had a few great days this week. Very little carry on at all really. She is starting to get a bit fussy with what sorts of solids she likes and doesn't like. She doesn't like apricot or tuna, but loves chocolate custard and apple custard! She totally gets that from me, yum, I love custard!

Wednesday, July 14

Another good day!

I'm not sure why, but every now and then, Holly decides she is going to put on a show for the physio! She did really really well today with her, particularly considering we haven't done any physio since the debacle that was the conference. I'm a bit slack with it all to be honest, some days I do some, some days I just play with her feet - which is sort of physio. But to be perfectly honest, I probably don't do as much as I should.
I went to the shops for an hour this afternoon. I did some shopping for my new niece who is due in September and some Christmas shopping at the toy sales. It bought up some funny thoughts, what do we get Holly?? She can't play with the normal sorts of toys you would normally get a one year old - I'm really not sure what to get her for either Christmas or her birthday. I'd say we'll get her a little bracelet or something nice from mummy and daddy, and maybe some clothes, but I guess her main present will be the party we throw her. There is just so much she won't be able to use, I try to pick out toys that might be good, I had a couple in my hand today to get her, but then I get all funny and put them back. I don't know why I'm like that, I should just get them. I guess clothes will be easier.
Came home in time for L to leave and get to his soccer game. I'm really glad I decided not to go now, its been raining and thundering and carrying on outside - I certainly don't want to be out in that! It would have meant me dropping Holly off at my mum's, then going back out there after the game to pick her back up again. Its not like mum is only 5 minutes up the road either, she will be soon though!
I officially packed my first box today! I only got one done, but its a start! I got the drawers from the buffet done. I should be doing some more now while L isn't here and Holly's asleep but I'm just hanging out on the computer instead.
Tomorrow is a busy day, I'm off to drop Holly at my mother in laws, then to the counsellor lady then home. I might speak to L about going to the movies tomorrow night, we'll see, he might just want a night in cause he's got the game tonight and one on Friday night.
Oh I had a few good conversations today. A lady from centerlink rang, she had our paperwork in front of her, she sounded really nice, and like she was on our side. She was going to do what she could for us, maybe not get any money, but at least get us the health care card, so fingers crossed that will come through. I spoke to T for about an hour about all sorts of stuff. I spoke to a friend from high school that I haven't seen since our 10 year reunion - we are going to catch up on Friday. And, I spoke to the lady that my sister organised for me for my birthday. The lady is a colour and image consultant, she is coming down next week. She is going to do my colours, then go through my wardrobe and do a bit of a re-vamp. VERY excited about it! I was going to wait until I lost a bit of weight, but I've given up on that idea, and I thought that if I got it done now, I can throw some clothes out and not have to pack them to move! I'm really looking forward to it.

Tuesday, July 13

Good one

We've had a whole heap of smiles today - she is soooo cute when she smiles!
Had a pretty lazy day today. The man came from the removal company to see what size truck he'll need to bring and just how much crap we own! I think we live in a smallish sized house and we have this much stuff, imagine how much people who have big houses have??!! Or those people on the TV shows like 'clean house' or 'hoarder', far out they must have some stuff! Anyway, L ended up getting some boxes from a friend of ours so we don't need to spend the extra $300 on boxes from the removalist. I'm sure they would prefer that we use their boxes, I'm sure it would be easier for them, but hey, these ones are free! I went to officeworks this morning and bought some packing tape too, so I'm all set for tomorrow, I'm going to make a start.
Tomorrow we have the physio first thing - 9am. I think L might be having some time off work around lunchtime, then he has a game to referee. Everton are playing Melbourne Victory and he's doing it, so I imagine he'll need to leave the house at about 3ish if not before. I'm not sure if I'm going or not. L hasn't heard anything about him getting tickets. I have organised for Mum to mind Holly, but if L doesn't hear anything about the tickets, I'll be just as happy to sit at home, its going to be freezing tomorrow night! I'll just have to decide in the morning if I can be bothered.

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